We do not fit
the way bodies are supposed to fit.
We are not neat.
Not tidy.
Not the kind of love
that fits in greeting cards.
We are messy.
We are hungry.
We are the kind of want
that leaves marks.
I have bitten you
and been sorry
and done it again
because the sound you made
was worth the guilt.
I have held you down
and watched you struggle
and seen in your eyes
the exact moment
you gave up fighting
and surrendered
to the weight of me.
I have whispered things
in the dark
that I would never say
in daylight,
things about keeping you
about needing you
about what I would do
to anyone
who tried to take you away.
And you,
you answered
with the same hunger.
You met my darkness
with your own.
You showed me
that I am not alone
in this wanting
that borders on obsession.
Some people love gently.
Softly.
Like a breeze.
We love like a storm.
Like a flood.
Like the kind of weather
that destroys
and rebuilds
and destroys again
because nothing worth having
is built to last
without being tested.
I have tested you.
You have tested me.
We have broken each other
and healed each other
and broken again
and somehow
always somehow
found our way back
to the same bed
the same hunger
the same desperate
unending
need.
They say love should be easy.
They say if it's hard
it's not right.
They don't know us.
They don't know
that hard is the point.
That fighting for this
every day
is what makes it ours.
That nothing easy
could ever feel
this real.
I choose you
in the hard moments.
I choose you
when I'm angry.
I choose you
when I want to leave
but stay instead
because leaving you
would be harder
than anything
we could ever face together.
You are not my other half.
You are not my missing piece.
You are a whole person
and I am a whole person
and together
we are something new.
Something that didn't exist
before we met.
Something that only exists
in the space between us.
The shape of us
is not two halves
becoming one.
The shape of us
is two wholes
choosing each other
every single day.
Come here.
Let me show you
what whole looks like.
Come here.
Let me remind you
that we chose this.
Come here.
Let me love you
the way only we can.
